noffsinger Chapter 1022 Jiang Fenghua's Attitude
Chapter 1022 Jiang Fenghua's Attitude
Jiang Fenghua remained calm and composed, her eyes sparkling as she stared intently into Xiao Yu's eyes. Her reply was utterly sincere: "I will not. I will not choose to marry someone else."
Xiao Yu's heart felt empty for a moment. Her bright eyes and white teeth, gentle and elegant demeanor, her beautiful and refined appearance, and his every smile and frown were etched into his very bones.
Jiang Fenghua sighed inwardly at his distraught expression. "Xiao Yu, how will you get over this?" When she learned that he had betrayed the Great Zhou Kingdom for her sake in his previous life, and that he had joined forces with Xiao Shang to lead troops to massacre the Great Zhou, her guilt grew ever deeper.
The question "Why?" stuck in Xiao Yu's throat, and he couldn't bring himself to ask it. He had never dared to look Jiang Fenghua in the eye like this before. He was confident that he could control the longing in his heart. Now, it felt as if a thread had suddenly grown in his heart, and his love for her was surging like a tide. If only he had expressed his feelings earlier...
He suddenly moved closer to her, "I was the one who met the Third Miss first. If I had confessed my feelings earlier, and if Xie Shang hadn't been there, would you have chosen me?"
"No, I will not choose you." Jiang Fenghua's face remained calm as she said indifferently, "My fate, my destiny with Xie Shang, was predetermined long ago. I was destined to marry him, just like in my previous life. I have never regretted marrying him."
Based on the information Xiao Yu gleaned from Qin Yunyan and Xiao Shang, he could guess that Jiang Fenghua's life after marrying into the royal family in her previous life was not good, and Xie Shang treated him badly. He had even sided with the Northern Xiao Kingdom for her sake and then committed such a crazy act.
He even wondered if, in this life, knowing she was still suffering, he would still give everything for her without hesitation, and his answer was yes.
Jiang Fenghua knew that Xiao Yu's love for her was too deep and too obsessive.
She didn't know how to persuade him to let go of his obsession; she was truly afraid that Xiao Yu would be stuck in a dead end for the rest of his life.
She said, "Why do something you know is impossible? Why say something you know is impossible so that others can use it against you?"
Xiao Yu suddenly didn't know where to put his face; he couldn't help himself in a moment of impulse.
Jiang Fenghua said in a deep voice, "Xiao Yu, I never regret any of the decisions I've made. I only regret that I lacked the ability to take control of my own destiny and instead handed it over to others. So, having lived again, I've learned to take control of my own destiny and my own life. Therefore, I never regret anything."
Upon hearing this, Xiao Yu's tense nerves suddenly relaxed. He also didn't quite understand Jiang Fenghua's thoughts. He said, "You're just a woman too. You need someone to rely on, don't you?"
Jiang Fenghua smiled calmly. She could only survive by relying on herself. Xiao Yu still didn't understand her.
She said, "Are you trying to say that a woman relies on her family before marriage and on her husband after marriage, and that these are the only two paths she can take? But I'm determined to walk my own path."
Jiang Fenghua said, "I witnessed the love between Baili Ayu and Danji Aruan with my own eyes, and what happened in the end!"
She knew he wanted to ask about this, and since that was the case, she would grant his wish.
"You've met Xiao Yu before, haven't you?"
Xiao Yu nodded. "In Xi Chuan's dream, I saw them get married, but why is it different from what they said? Has Your Majesty also seen it?"
Jiang Fenghua couldn't understand why Xiao Yu could enter the dream she had woven for them and make him mistakenly believe that they had been together a thousand years ago.
Jiang Fenghua said, "Danji Aruan actually married Baili Shang; her fate was sealed long ago."
Ah Ruan also chose the life she decided for herself, and in the end, she lived a life where she was in control. Compared to marrying her beloved Ah Yu, Ah Ruan was much freer. She didn't tell the truth, nor did she want Xiao Yu to know.
Xiao Yu seemed to understand. She married the emperor, so she was freer because she was finally living a life where she could make her own decisions.
Jiang Fenghua wanted to put an end to Xiao Yu's hopes once and for all. She lowered her voice and said, "Even if I had to choose a hundred times, I would still choose Xie Shang. Apart from our inescapable fate, Xie Shang's identity is actually more suitable for me. Power is what I want most in my heart."
If a person does not serve himself, he will be destroyed by heaven and earth.
If I don't act for myself, how can I have the right to talk about acting for others?
She understood her grandfather's meaning perfectly well; he feared she would get caught up in the vortex of power and forget her original aspirations.
This was the first time Xiao Yu had heard Jiang Fenghua speak so frankly about her "ambition".
She said, "Xie Shang is a good emperor, so how can I not be a good empress? How can Minister Xiao not be a good official who cares for the people?"
“I may strive for status, position, and power, but in the end, I can use it for the good of the people.” Jiang Fenghua’s eyes were clear as she said in a deep voice, “The same applies to Lord Xiao.”
Xiao Yu watched Jiang Fenghua leave. He had clearly anticipated this outcome, and she had already given him the answer, but he just wouldn't give up.
He thought to himself, maybe she wouldn't choose to marry the emperor, but he would choose to marry him. It turns out he had made a fool of himself today.
A thousand years ago, Danji Aruan actually married Baili Shang, but what he saw was that Danji Aruan married Baili Ayu.
He guessed that Jiang Fenghua had arranged for Aruan to marry Ayu.
He wanted to ask those questions, but in the end he didn't. Asking any more would have just made him seem like he was being unreasonable.
Xiao Yu smiled knowingly. He knew all along that Jiang Fenghua could not possibly have romantic feelings for him, but he still insisted on asking. Did he look a little silly just now?
Jiang Fenghua hasn't changed; he just can't quite control his emotions anymore.
These past few nights he's inexplicably become irritable, and he's been suppressing his feelings for Jiang Fenghua.
He wanted to find a place to process his emotions.
Qin Yunyan had been secretly following Xiao Yu. She muttered to herself, "So it turns out that Xiao Yu isn't a taciturn man after all. He has his moments of losing control. He was even putting on an act in front of her. He was so close to Empress Jiang just now. What were they talking about that was so intimate?"
When Xiao Yu returned, he only felt a pain in his chest. He did not notice that someone was following him. After entering the house, he took off his clothes and saw that the whale totem on his chest was glowing blue.
Could this totem control a person's mind? Back then, Granny Wang also cut off the totem from her chest.
Thinking back to what he had said to the Empress today, Xiao Yu realized that he had never been so tactless and unable to control his emotions.
Thinking of this, Xiao Yu pulled out a dagger and stabbed it towards his heart. Qin Yun, who was climbing on the window, was so frightened by his action that he shouted, "Xiao Yu, what are you trying to do?"
Before Xiao Yu could react, Qin Yunyan rushed in and snatched the knife from his hand, saying, "You're so upset about something like this? Are you even a man?"