Searching for Treasures in the Clouds

Chapter 208 Pain

When the envelope was opened, it turned out that what was inside was not a letter, but an obituary written by Yu Ru to herself.

The paper reads:

On a certain day of a certain month of a certain year, I died. I wrote this article to inform my spirit of my life in advance.

My name is Yu Ru, and I am from Manman Village, Yuancheng. I was born in a poor family, and when I was young, I was separated from my parents. My parents worked hard to make a living, leaving me to live with my grandparents and my brother. Before I was seven years old, I was always accompanied by chickens and ducks at home, and I lived a leisurely life. However, justice was inhumane, and when I was seven years old, something unexpected happened. I was kidnapped by kidnappers and sold far away. The land they sold me to was threatened with soldiers, and I was forced to take coal mines.

In that place, I was cursed and beaten with a stick every day. My body was melted and bruised. The wounds were huge and painful, but I could not rest. Otherwise, I could not eat. I endured the cold and hunger. I ate one meal a day. The food I ate was inedible, or it was taken from other people's leftovers. The rulers were tyrannical and cruel. They harmed many people and were lewd and evil. Many women were raped. I almost suffered from this injury, but my two fathers saved me. My two fathers returned to my second life, so even if I go to the underworld, I will be grateful to my two fathers.

With the blessing of God, I was trapped in this place for about half a year, and I was able to escape. I didn't know the way, and I didn't know where to go. I was also penniless. The way home was long and expensive, so I had to beg and ask passers-by to get home. Half a year later, I returned to my home. I had not eaten for a long time, and the wounds on my body were not treated. The injuries were very serious and needed emergency treatment. The treatment would cost a lot, and my parents couldn't bear it, so my parents were unhappy. Fortunately, there were kind people who helped me in my emergency and saved me from danger, and I was able to be treated.

I thought I would be back to normal when I got home, but the trip to get the porridge shocked me so much that I couldn't speak, so I changed my ways. My parents were ashamed of me, and everyone around me looked at me strangely.

After going through many hardships, I went back to school at the age of nine. Because I couldn’t speak, I had no friends in the place where I studied, and no one wanted to get close to me. People all thought I was a monster. My facial injury made me afraid to show my true colors to others, and I covered my face. This made people think I was strange. I cried every time someone told me about it, and I was sad that I had no friends to tell, and my parents didn’t know either. The humiliation of death hurts for a moment, but the humiliation of life is a shame for years. The burden of life made me want to commit suicide many times, but I finally tried my best to encourage myself.

At the age of eleven, I entered a new school. I thought I could be reborn. Unexpectedly, the world was full of difficulties and obstacles. I had no friends in the place where I studied. Many of my students criticized me, laughed at me, and teased me. At home, my parents did not care about me, did not love me, and even cursed me. I was blamed by the bad words of the world. I wanted to take revenge on those who had deceived me, so I developed a determination to strive hard and studied hard. God still cares about me. I may be a genius. I learn quickly and have nothing to fear. I learned from industry and art and reached a certain level of skill. This comforted me and temporarily forgot the hurt of others. However, it was still not enough, so I worked harder and studied day and night, but I could leave. I thought about it, but it was still not enough, because I had no revenge. This is my obsession, and I have not finished it until now.

Life is an illusion, but the truth is revealed at death. Looking back at my life, I have no time to eat enough, no time to keep warm, no time to rest, and I am always overworked and frightened. People all want to kill me. There is little time for happiness, and the suffering is even worse. Before I was seventeen, I didn't know the taste of happiness. I was suppressed by evil people, and I heard poisonous curses all the time. I couldn't let it go. With my talents and ambitions, there is nothing in the world that I can't do, but this life is a failure. I have never been relaxed and can't be happy. Life is really difficult. If there is an afterlife, I want to be a cloud, and I want to go to a place where I can live and never be hungry or cold. Finally, I thank the two of them, my best friend Ming Shisui and my lover Yun Jixing, who taught me what love is and what happiness is. The past situation is vivid in my mind. Alas, words have an end but feelings cannot end. When I see it again, the one I love is the one who loves me. Alas! Alas!

It was both a eulogy and an autobiography. After reading these words, Yun Jixing was in shock and couldn't recover for a long time.

He never expected that Yu's life would be like this. He was kidnapped at the age of seven and was trapped in a place with evil people for more than half a year. He escaped from there by chance and begged and wandered outside for half a year before returning home.

Looking back at all of Yu Ru's unusual behaviors, there are actually traces to follow, and he should have noticed this earlier. Why is Yu Ru's mental state so bad? It's because she has suffered inhuman torture; why does she always pick up things on the ground to eat? It turns out that she had an experience of not having anything to eat, so all food seems precious to her; why does she like to put a knife under her pillow when she sleeps? It's because she was attacked by a gangster; why does she always say that she smells danger? Because she has been in great danger; why does she seem to be not afraid of the cold in winter? Because she has endured extreme cold; why is her mind still unstable and her emotions fluctuate so much despite her current achievements...

The root of all evil is the hateful human traffickers. Yu Ru was frightened and became functionally aphonic. From then on, she had difficulty living and her mental state deteriorated. I guess her poor health was caused by those wandering experiences, which is why she is so thin now. Because her roots have been damaged, and her family did not give her good treatment and care, she has been dragging her sick body to this age.

Yun Jixing sat on the beauty couch in a daze, staring blankly at Yu Ru's back as she sat in front of the computer. Yu Ru's eulogy made him feel dizzy and weak, as if all the blood in his body was flowing back into his head, overloading his brain and causing him to die of a "cerebral hemorrhage".

He closed his eyes in pain, then collapsed on the beauty couch, holding the eulogy and notebook.

On the other side, Yu Ru was peeping. She hacked into the cameras installed in Lan Youde's private club and spied on what they were talking about and doing in the club.

There was no special content at the moment, just a bunch of people gambling. It was a bit boring, so she turned back to look at Yun Jixing. He was lying on the beauty couch with a notebook in his arms, his brows slightly furrowed, looking very painful, with one hand covering his heart. From this point of view, he looked a bit like a patient with cardiovascular disease such as myocardial infarction.

She immediately stood up and strode to him to check the situation, and Gu Xian'an followed her.

She came and sat down next to Yun Jixing, patted his face a few times, and then placed her hand on his heart.

"Aru..." Yun Jixing opened his eyes and his breathing became a little rapid.

[What’s wrong with you? Do you have a heart disease?] Yu Ru gestured anxiously.

Yun Jixing propped himself up and slowly sat up. "I don't have a heart disease, but I think I might have one. Aru..."

Tears welled up in his eyes, and his voice suddenly choked. He pointed at his heart and hesitated for a long time before he spoke, "I feel... I feel my heart hurts so much, I feel like it's going to break, it really... it really hurts."

Yu Ru sighed and was silent for a moment. She gestured, "Relax a little. Your heart may really break. Don't get too excited. No matter what happened in the past, I am still alive now. The result is already good."

"But...but...I just feel very sad, I'm sorry..." Yun Jixing burst into tears and threw himself into Yu Ru's arms, his face resting on her chest, crying bitterly.

Yu Ru looked down at him, thinking for a while, she stretched out her hands to hold his head up, and kissed his forehead. Then, she kicked off her shoes, moved both legs to the beauty bed and crossed them together, and let Yun Jixing rest his head on her legs.