noffsinger Chapter 397 The "Royal Way" of Self
Chapter 397 The "Royal Way" of Self
The voice in his memory sounded again. This time, the surrounding scenes kept changing, and all that could be heard were the accusations and insults from the people of Linglang back then.
"This is ridiculous!"
"A murderer actually became the guardian of this place."
"I don't know what the Holy Lord is thinking. How can someone like her be deified?"
"You know, I heard that this girl was a battle doll made by the Santana people. For some reason, she became like a human."
"No way, no wonder she stayed in the ruins for 500 years without eating or drinking."
"Shh, be careful she hears you, this guy is a murderer!"
"Faced with other people's gossip, you chose to tolerate it. You thought that as long as you did well enough, they would accept you and tolerate you. However, the truth is, your repeated indulgence only led to greater rejection."
"Get out of our home, puppet! Our six tribes have never needed a master, and we certainly don't need a murderer as our protector!"
"That's right, not to mention the puppets made by those people!"
"Remember what that phantom showed you? That was your greatest fear. Rejection, hatred, suspicion, and finally, even attempts to expel you. Finally, you flew into a rage again and used red lightning to reduce the leader to ash. This served as a warning to the rest, so that no one would dare to look down on you. But at the same time, everyone's rejection of you only deepened."
As soon as she finished speaking, the scene in her memory changed again, and this time she came to a ruin.
"Do you remember? This is the scene as you followed the route you remembered, searching for your adoptive mother's village. Even though 500 years have passed, and even though she's long gone, you still cling to that memory, hoping against hope, to that original village, hoping to find her descendants. Unbeknownst to you, 500 years later, humanity's endless wars have reduced the original village to ruins. For a while, you grew numb, even questioning the purpose of your own existence."
"Is it a tool? Or... a lie that can't even fool myself?"
The sound in my memory grew muffled, like a blade scraping against rusted metal. The girl stood in the center of the ruins, the charred beams crumbling beneath her feet. The wind whistled dust through the hollow window frames.
Five hundred years ago, my adoptive mother gave me warmth and taught me the basics of survival in the world.
But five hundred years later, even the tombstones were turned into dust by the flames of war.
The environment changed again, and this time the endless war cry broke the tranquility of the moment.
"During your period of depression, two of the six tribes suddenly joined forces to rebel against 'Order'. Upon hearing the news, you unleashed your might without hesitation. Since then, these two tribes have been completely wiped out from Linglang. And you also learned a lesson from this rebellion: only when a ruthless person reigns supreme will people not look down on you."
"So you began to disguise your cowardice with ruthlessness and decisiveness. And this feeling of drawing blood from the tip of a gun must be unpleasant, right?"
In her memory, she whispered in her ear, and at this moment, Li Xueyan began to gradually collapse after seeing these memories of the past.
"Stop talking, stop talking! You just... don't understand anything!" she yelled in anger.
"I don't understand? No, it's because I know you too well that you're so broken. You keep saying you've left your past and your weaknesses behind, but when you see these things, you still look so confused. Accept reality. This is the real you. Fear, anger, and self-doubt. You pretend to be so high and mighty, but in reality, aren't you afraid of losing your usefulness again and becoming a disposable tool?"
When the surroundings changed again, she arrived at the dome of the Chixiao Palace.
Above the dome, thunders are like waterfalls, and behind him is a bottomless abyss.
Li Xueyan subconsciously stepped back, but suddenly stepped on empty air. When she looked back, she found herself standing on the edge of the top of the city wall.
"Dream...it's time to wake up."
Snapped.
In his memory, he gently pushed his own chest, and before he could react, he fell into the abyss. It was like being deprived of freedom in the ancient ruins, his eyes filled with the mockery of his opponent.
“There is no need to suffer anymore, and there is no need to hide anymore, because I will take your place and complete what you have not done.”
In my memory, I turned around and walked towards the dazzling lightning, but I was like a puppet with broken strings, falling into the endless abyss.
"Is this the end?"
"Again, discarded like a tool."
"Mother, sister..."
……
I still remember that summer, it was the fifth day since my adoptive mother took me in. At that time, watching the fugitives from outside begging on the streets, she asked this question.
"Mother, why does everyone look so depressed?"
Her adoptive mother, who was baking bread, told her.
"Because they are refugees from outside, they have lost their homes and are wandering around just like you. Because of the war, they often face the threat of despair and death."
The girl was silent for a few seconds.
"War is so cruel...but aren't you afraid?"
The foster mother took out the baked bread and smiled.
"It would be a lie to say I'm not afraid, but precisely because of this, we should enjoy the present moment even more. In these chaotic times, for many, just being alive is a luxury, let alone living the carefree life we have now. At least this freedom proves that we once lived a carefree life."
……
"Xueyan?"
"Yes, do you like this name?"
I still remember the life in the castle. Li Xueqi stayed close to me and named me after my surname.
"Yan represents color. It is because of its embellishment that the world has so many different forms. Just like your past, although it is full of twists and turns, it also depicts many beautiful things. Weaving these together, we have the you of today."
……
I still remember those discussions that asked for help from Ice Emperor Rexaos.
"Brother Rex, why did the Holy Lord choose me to be the guardian? Is it just because of my identity?"
Rex sighed angrily.
"Is it because of the human discussion again?"
"Well, I heard that you weren't human before, but why is there such a big difference after becoming a guardian?"
"Oh……"
Rex was silent for a moment.
"Xueyan, do you know the difference between a king and a human? A king doesn't care about what others say, but uses his own methods to change their perceptions. As a human, the most crucial point is how you evaluate yourself, not living by the judgment of others. To understand this, you must determine your "direction," that is, your "desire" and "will."
……
When she in her memory was about to pass through the lightning, countless shining and crazy red thunders suddenly emerged from the abyss behind her, gushing out from it like a waterfall in reverse flow. As Li Xueyan's figure tore through the lightning and soared into the sky, she returned to the top of the thunder again.