Quick Wear: The Beautiful, Strong and Tragic Path of a Swordsman

Chapter 236 God, God's Messenger, and the Godly Tree 03

In fact, Xu Yan didn’t care at all about what others thought of him. Even all the expressions he showed in front of his senior brothers and sisters were performed based on his observations of them.

He is very patient with those who truly care about him and treat him well.

But he couldn't love him as much as they did.

He didn't even know what it felt like to be liked.

It's just that when he showed those expressions, their mood would improve, so he would always do what they wanted.

That's it.

He didn't quite understand how to do more.

And acting is like his instinct, an instinct for self-preservation.

He knew clearly that if others knew about his thoughts and differences, even his senior brother and the head master who loved him the most, they would no longer treat him the same way as they do now.

They would only be nice to Xu Yan as a 'human', but not to him as a 'demon'.

Shemales have different paths.

He himself knew very well that compared to humans, his way of thinking and emotions were actually closer to that of a demon.

Besides, he always felt that everything was very inconsistent.

But from the moment he hatched from the dragon egg until he saw the divine light in the room this morning, he had not been able to find out what was wrong and what it was specifically.

And now, he found it.

He must go and meet the so-called god.

Perhaps if he met Him, he would get the answer.

"Why are you daydreaming again?"

After Gu Yun scolded his two junior brothers and sisters, he saw that Xu Yan did not eat, with his eyes lowered and motionless, his brows wrinkled into a "川" shape.

"Is there something wrong with your health again? Tell the truth to Senior Brother." His tone became stern.

Yan Tao and Ruan Haoran also looked at Xu Yan with concern, especially Yan Tao, who immediately put on the dignified attitude of the second senior sister and no longer had any of her previous playfulness and liveliness.

"Did the Tongtian Whale go into the sea and rise into the air at such a high speed and so bumpy last night that you felt unwell? Why didn't you tell me you felt unwell? Didn't you promise me that you wouldn't do this again?"

Seeing the two 'family heads' who were away from home looking cold, Ruan Haoran was also afraid, but seeing that Junior Brother Xu was stunned by the two questions, he could only come out quickly to smooth things over.

"Big Brother, Senior Sister Yan, don't you know what kind of temper Junior Brother Xu has? He will definitely do what he promised. You must have misunderstood. Calm down."

Having said that, Ruan Haoran could understand the two people's overreaction because there was already a very bad precedent.

During that training, they encountered a powerful demon cultivator, and in the end Xu Yan turned the tide and saved everyone.

After the battle, the oldest ones, Gu Yunyi and Yan Tao, naturally asked about his condition first regardless of their own injuries, but at that time Xu Yan just replied indifferently, "Nothing happened."

When he returned to the sect, Xu Yan vomited blood and passed out. If the sect leader had not come out to inquire about the situation, stood by Xu Yan, and provided first aid to him, he would most likely not have been saved.

This directly caused psychological trauma to all the fellow disciples he rescued.

I blame myself for not noticing Xu Yan's abnormality.

Especially Gu Yunyi and Yan Tao, who were recognized as the eldest senior brother and second senior sister in the sect. Not only were they scolded by the sect leader and the elders, they also took the initiative to accept the punishment.

After that, Xu Yan spent several years recovering from his injuries, and these two people completely treated Xu Yan as a porcelain doll.

The agreement that "if you feel uncomfortable or hurt, you must tell me" was made at that time.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just wondering what the envoy is going to choose."

Again, Xu Yan is very patient with these 'close' people, he is willing to listen to them and make them happy.

Treat like... a pet.

Wait, why did he feel like he actually had a pet...but he clearly didn't.

"Junior Brother Xu is actually interested in this?" Ruan Haoran looked at Xu Yan in surprise.

This little iceberg, who is second only to the head of the sect, has never been interested in any people or things. This is the first time that he has expressed his wishes other than cultivation.